I starting playing games when I was very younge, at around 6 years old , my cousin got me into pokemon on her game boy colour .. from the moment I started playing I was hooked. I had alot going on in my life at the time with my parents splitting up and changing schools and bullys and so on and I hated my life but when I turned the game boy on it was such an escape from all the the stuff happening, when I would hear my dad fighting with his new partner I could just turn it on and forget about everything.
As time went on things only got worse in school and at home and I was struggling alot , until a friend introduced me to runescape. This game became everything to me, I was playing 12 hours plus a day at around 12 years old as my mum was barely home and wouldn't care if we went to school or not, I had a older friend in the game that would buy me membership and basically helped guide me through them times, the game was my life and nothing else mattered. So I eventually ended up back with my dad after some time as my mum got evicted from not paying rent , when I got to my dad's he had a proper computer setup and good internet and a stable home, so I continued my gaming , runescape at every waking moment , i would wear the same clothes all week until i was forced to change , had no hygiene whatsoever , got bullied so bad at school but none of it mattered as long as i could game . When i hit 14 my whole life changed and i ended up in the drug game as i later found out i have a addictive personality , weather that came from the gaming or not i dont know, after a few years getting into some trouble and going through what alot of younge males do , i finally got my shit together and got clean and found a job and so on , i thought i had changed my life completely , i came off crack ,pot , alcohole everything you can think of, i was kickboxing 5 times a week 3 hours a day in fighters class, i had a good job a car, everything was going great until my sisters brother told me he played runescape. My addiction for the game came back so fast i didnt realise what happened, i stopped caring for my job, started missing training, got aggressive at home from being tired (staying up late) and so on, i eventually relapsed and ended up back on the drugs for a span of about 3 months to then came back out of the it again and basically restart the whole process again.
After this I never relapsed on hard drugs again but I was never able to manage the gaming. I have been through close to 30 jobs now, I have let my partner and kids down so many times , I always end up back gaming , as soon as i let myself slip before i know it im waking up at 6pm and gaming till the morning avoiding my family . Gaming has ruined my life, more than i can explain or write. Apologise for the horrible story telling and writing , if you made it this far you can probably understand why.
Anyway im 5 days clean now and im hoping i can finally kick the habit, gaming helped me through some horrible times in my life and i have a deep love for games but enough is enough, i hope i can get through this , ive always said gaming wasnt the problem because i never wanted to or realised how bad it was.